Finally! Here we go…

A few years ago, Candice and I started working on a film about her life.

Her childhood, her family, her cancer, her mother, her story. Her biggest wish around the film was to finally be able to tell her own story in her own words.

I have a great deal of footage or her and I have, finally, started to put things in motion that will allow her to tell her own story in her own words. In May I will start working with an editor to shape her story.

I am deeply saddened that we weren’t able to complete this while she was still alive, but trust she will find solace in knowing that it’s getting done.

In the Summer of 2014, a year before she passed away, we spent two months working tirelessly on a kickstarter campaign. We didn’t raise our full budget, but once the campaign was done we raised enough to get started and film some of her journey (including meeting up with her brother five decades after she last saw him).

I have enough left to employ someone for 3 weeks, but I would like to be able to double that and spend 6 weeks putting a rough cut together.

If you would like to contribute to this endeavor, the website is still active here. It’s time to get this film finished.

Thank you for your help and for sharing this link!

Memorial for Candida Royalle in San Francisco

Feminist Erotic Filmmaker, 70’s Porn Star, Artist, Singer with the Cockettes, Sex Toy Innovator, Beloved Friend & Sister

WHEN: Sunday, October 25, 2015

Gather: 5:30 PM

Memorial: 6-7:30 PM

Afterglow & Potluck: 7:30-9 PM

WHO IS INVITED: Everyone and anyone that wants to come remember and/or pay homage to Candida Royalle; relatives, old and new friends, fans, colleagues, admirers, lovers, people who have been inspired by Candida’s work…  YOU.

PLEASE BRING—Memories, stories, show & tell items, photos, altar items, a potluck dish to share and something to drink.

WHERE: Center for Sex & Culture, 1349 Mission Street (Btw 9th and 10th streets), San Francisco, CA.

HOSTED BY Center for Sex & Culture with Annie Sprinkle, Veronica Hart, Veronica Vera and other friends and family.

SELECT OBITUARIES for more information:

NY Times

NY Times—Women in the World, obit by Lily Burana

PS: Another memorial is being planned to take place in Manhattan on NOVEMBER 22ND, SUNDAY. Veronica Vera will send information soon.

Rest in Peace Candice – I will miss you

On a subway while filming While You Were Gone

On a subway while filming While You Were Gone

I am rarely at a loss for words, but at this moment I struggle to find the best way to express my sadness.

Candice, Candida Royalle, passed away early this morning. She was only 64. I met Candice several years ago when I asked to interview her for the film Inside Her Sex: documentary film – she was gracious and giving and funny and energetic. I approached her again, hoping to capture more of her stories, of her spirit.

In February 2014, we spoke and she asked if I would help her tell her story….we started, together to work on While You Were Gone: The Untold Story of Candida Royalle…and in a very short space of time we covered a lot of ground. I had the privilege of going to St. Louis with her to meet the brother she hadn’t seen for 62 years…to be witness to that meeting. We visited the grave of her birth mother…we explored old neighborhoods she lived in. I spent time in her home, and we talked and talked.

Candice was tenacious, energetic, charming, engaging, passionate, driven, opinionated (and I mean that as a positive) – she had an unparalleled drive. Although we clashed because we share some of the same attributes, I deeply respected her and admired her for so many reasons. She was fierce and brave, very brave.

I know she was scared of passing away and I hope, deeply and sincerely, that she has been held in that journey by those who went before her.

Rest in peace dear Candice. I hold you in the highest esteem and I will miss you.

I am committed to finding a way to tell your story through film. Please click here if you would like to contribute to this project.
With much love. Sheona x

We started filming!

Candice and Jimmy

Just a very quick update to let you know that we started filming WHILE YOU WERE GONE last month!!

We spent a few days in St. Louis, where Candice met up with her brother Jimmy – the first time they’ve seen each other in over 60 years.

As you can imagine, it was an intense and emotional visit.

We are now planning the next shoot. Hopefully in the Spring we will spend time together in Manhattan, where we will visit the places Candice lived as a child.

Candice continues her battle against ovarian cancer and we are waiting on potentially exciting news about a new course of experimental treatments we’re hoping will be available in the Spring.

The first film we worked on together,INSIDE HER SEX, is finished and will broadcast on the documentary Channel in Canada on December 14, 2014. An excerpt from the film can be found HERE and we are working to secure a broadcaster in the US.

We appreciate your ongoing support and interest.

If you would like to donate to the next phase of the project you can do it through our Paypal account via the website for the film.

We will update further in the Spring and are still working towards completing this film in 2015.

Here’s wishing everyone a fantastic holiday season!


FROM CANDICE: Project Update October 2014


The first thing I want to tell you about is our film.

While we were unable to make our Kickstarter goal to raise full funding for a feature length documentary, Sheona and I have decided to keep going and work towards collaborating on a film that tells the story in a way we can both be proud of.

Some of you re-committed your funding through our website and Paypal, while others sent checks – or cheques for the Canadians! – we appreciate each donation and your unwavering support. The funds will be put to good use.

We will begin our work when we travel to visit with my family in November where I will see an uncle I’ve never met, and a brother who I haven’t seen in over six decades.

We will also retrace the steps my mother took after she left me, piecing together what we can of her life during that time.

I can’t wait!

We will finish this film in 2015 and I can only imagine it will be a beautiful collaboration & celebration of discovery.


In the interest of keeping you completely up to date, I feel it’s only fair to also let you know that, to my utter and complete disappointment, after only 3 months of remission, my cancer once again made an unwelcome appearance. This is not unusual; in fact, it’s been the pattern all along: the chemo efficiently knocks the cancer out of my system, but it’s unable to provide me with a lengthy remission. This is my fourth bout.

Fortunately my doctor (“Dr K”) assures me we still have lots of options left, and, ever looking to put a positive spin on things, he tells me I will not be losing my hair this time. Good news for sure! Dr K is one to encourage his patients to continue living their lives, even while undergoing treatment, and that is exactly what I’ve been doing.


After receiving my first chemo treatment in September, I flew to LA where I delivered the Closing Keynote at CatalystCon West (a conference for people working in the field of sexology) along with my Club 90 sisters, Annie Sprinkle, Veronica Hart & Veronica Vera.

On November 5th, I’ll be taking part in an event called “Raising the Bar”: A series of panels led by “notable professors, researchers and industry leaders that will take place in some of the city’s best bars creating unexpected environments for discussion and supplying the public with direct access to cutting-edge research”.   The first event earlier this year was considered a smashing success and was written up in several venues including The Huffington and AMNY.


I’ve always wanted to tell my story about my mother in my own words and I feel blessed to be on the path to making that happen.

Thanks, all of you, for the loving support you’ve shown throughout.

It has not been an easy process. It’s been stressful, unpredictable, and disappointing at times; but, in the same breath, healing and rewarding.

I feel like I am finally on the path to the truth; to find answers to the questions I’ve carried around my entire life.

And, while not all of them are the answers I was hoping for, they’re answers nonetheless.

And while the truth might not always be pretty, it’s still the truth.

I just read a slim but moving book called, “Orphan Train”, and in it one of the characters quotes someone as saying,

“You can’t find peace until you find all the pieces.”

It is my wish to leave this life in peace.

Thank you for all your support in helping me find my pieces.


Many of you have asked me to post the information once again on how to contribute to our project. It’s as simple as going to this link and paying through paypal: HERE

If you’re uncomfortable going through paypal you can send me a check at:

Femme Productions, Inc. P.O. Box 574 Mattituck, NY 11952

All funds will be used directly towards the production of the film.

Thank you for your ongoing interest.

All my best

Candice xx